Thursday, April 28, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Day 74/Day 41....In the hard times.
I'm in a stage right now where moving forward and looking backwards at the same time is going to harm you. Especially your walk in Faith with Messiah. It's hard to explain, and really has nothing to do with my eating but has everything to do with my attitude and my strength. Which if failing can have an impact on my eating and my entire well being because as many as you know this flesh means nothing but my spiritual walk everything! Gabriel and I & our three little blessings are going through a time right now... or maybe it is just me! Meaning there is a path ahead of us but it has this HUGE question mark right in the middle of it.... I'm not saying it has to do with who we believe in, more just that the journey that lays ahead is one that is wide open to anything and everything...where, how, when and with whom? haha... I'm probably confusing you, aren't I! The unknown awaits us... but I'm more willing to control it so I have an idea of what's going on, instead of fully allowing Yahweh 100% control.
I have a hard time adjusting to this type of faith... believing all things will be taken care of and I just sit back and wait..... and wait......... wait....... and wait some more. I know I sound bad. faithless. honestly I sound like a weepy brat who wants her way just cause it feels better than to have HIS WAY! I ask you to forgive me... but I'm really trying to understand this journey because I want it with my whole heart but I'm so afraid of the unknown that I become foolish and weak in my thinking and allow the enemy to have a Hay Day with my emotions, and yes that is all this is.... EMOTIONS... I have become emotional (I could justifie it because I am a mommy of 3 young children but that would be wrong, I'm still accountable none-the-less). unwilling to deal with the fact that all is being handled, it's just the "unknown factor". You'd think by now I would have learned because of course this is not the first time I've had to learn this lesson. Yet I'm still failing the execution to bring about courage and hope for whats to come. Maybe it's because I see it everyday... you know the home life, the waiting gets harder cause I'm the one moving about in the functions that become hard to function??? I know once again you must be thinking I've lost it! But I'm trying to write this like I feel inside.
So as I write I also become encouraged because I feel the Ruach show me examples of the unknown like the Israelite's coming out of Egypt! What more of the unknown could that be.... yet they too had there trials but they did end up making it to the Promise land (exdous 3 starts Moses journey.. but goes into many books..). Then there is The three hebrew servants Rack, Shack and Bendy! (Daniel 3) Actually their reals names were Hananiah, Azaryah and Mishel. Think of their unknown but yet that didn't stop them from Honoring their Heavenly Father even unto death if that be so. There are so many things that encourage me to quit straying with my mind and start trusting with my heart!
Psa 39:7 “And now, יהוה, what do I wait for? My expectancy is in You.
Psa 37:9 For evil-doers are cut off; But those who wait on יהוה, They shall inherit the earth
Psa 42:5 Why are you depressed, O my being? And why are you restless within me? Wait for Elohim: for I shall yet thank Him, For the deliverance of His face!
Psa 52:9 I thank You forever, Because You have done it; And in the presence of Your kind ones I wait on Your Name, for it is good.
Psa 59:9 O my Strength, I wait for You; For Elohim is my strong tower, My Elohim of kindness.
Psa 71:14 But I continually wait, And shall praise You more and more.
There are many upon many scritpures that speak of waiting... But that last one hit me hard. I have forgotten to praise Him in this time. this time of the "unknown" I should be praising and lifting up my hands and heart and voice to my maker. It is so vital... yet I have missed that. I will truly tell you that I have felt it too.
I must end here though (little ones need naps)... But I want you to know I'm going to choose to praise... I'm going to walk away from this laptop and lift my voice in prayer and thanksgiving for all the many blessings and beautiful gifts he has given and for what lies ahead. I will choose right this moment and offer up my praise and honor Him. For He is worthy of it all. I ask you though please keep us in your prayers for so many things lay ahead... I pray we walk rightly and righteously towards Yahushua Messiah! For that is all the is important...
HalleluYAH!
Let's RUN!
Sady
I have a hard time adjusting to this type of faith... believing all things will be taken care of and I just sit back and wait..... and wait......... wait....... and wait some more. I know I sound bad. faithless. honestly I sound like a weepy brat who wants her way just cause it feels better than to have HIS WAY! I ask you to forgive me... but I'm really trying to understand this journey because I want it with my whole heart but I'm so afraid of the unknown that I become foolish and weak in my thinking and allow the enemy to have a Hay Day with my emotions, and yes that is all this is.... EMOTIONS... I have become emotional (I could justifie it because I am a mommy of 3 young children but that would be wrong, I'm still accountable none-the-less). unwilling to deal with the fact that all is being handled, it's just the "unknown factor". You'd think by now I would have learned because of course this is not the first time I've had to learn this lesson. Yet I'm still failing the execution to bring about courage and hope for whats to come. Maybe it's because I see it everyday... you know the home life, the waiting gets harder cause I'm the one moving about in the functions that become hard to function??? I know once again you must be thinking I've lost it! But I'm trying to write this like I feel inside.
So as I write I also become encouraged because I feel the Ruach show me examples of the unknown like the Israelite's coming out of Egypt! What more of the unknown could that be.... yet they too had there trials but they did end up making it to the Promise land (exdous 3 starts Moses journey.. but goes into many books..). Then there is The three hebrew servants Rack, Shack and Bendy! (Daniel 3) Actually their reals names were Hananiah, Azaryah and Mishel. Think of their unknown but yet that didn't stop them from Honoring their Heavenly Father even unto death if that be so. There are so many things that encourage me to quit straying with my mind and start trusting with my heart!
Psa 39:7 “And now, יהוה, what do I wait for? My expectancy is in You.
Psa 37:9 For evil-doers are cut off; But those who wait on יהוה, They shall inherit the earth
Psa 42:5 Why are you depressed, O my being? And why are you restless within me? Wait for Elohim: for I shall yet thank Him, For the deliverance of His face!
Psa 52:9 I thank You forever, Because You have done it; And in the presence of Your kind ones I wait on Your Name, for it is good.
Psa 59:9 O my Strength, I wait for You; For Elohim is my strong tower, My Elohim of kindness.
Psa 71:14 But I continually wait, And shall praise You more and more.
There are many upon many scritpures that speak of waiting... But that last one hit me hard. I have forgotten to praise Him in this time. this time of the "unknown" I should be praising and lifting up my hands and heart and voice to my maker. It is so vital... yet I have missed that. I will truly tell you that I have felt it too.
I must end here though (little ones need naps)... But I want you to know I'm going to choose to praise... I'm going to walk away from this laptop and lift my voice in prayer and thanksgiving for all the many blessings and beautiful gifts he has given and for what lies ahead. I will choose right this moment and offer up my praise and honor Him. For He is worthy of it all. I ask you though please keep us in your prayers for so many things lay ahead... I pray we walk rightly and righteously towards Yahushua Messiah! For that is all the is important...
HalleluYAH!
Let's RUN!
Sady
Saturday, April 16, 2011
On this Sabbath I pray you all peace! It has been a very crazy and busy week this last week... I think Gabe & I could sleep for three days! LOL... Thankful that Passover is this coming monday evening! Such a beautiful time thinking of our Messiah & truly embracing this time as time for renewal! My heart & mind have been full of thoughts and things of this journey I'm on... truly looking back & seeing so many area's in my life I have kept unkept. I am seeing things I did or have done or doing that still need correction. You can break old habits but I'm making sure I don't make new ones that just fulfill the others yet in a different ways. I pray u all are blessed & seeing Yahweh manifest His will and direction as we embark on another beautiful Feast! Yahweh Bless...
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Day 62/ Day 29 Don't eat the raw honey off you fingers.
LOL..... Yes, I have had to learn not the lick my fingers when finishing up a peanut butter and honey sandwich, or slicing up fruit. Not easy when that is all you're used to doing after you fix something for yourself or your little buddy in need of a tasty snack. I am reminded of this journey everyday, some days I'm like "Yeah, this is easy" others I'm like "oh, a piece of real chocolate would be Delightful." haha, I have stuck in there... I have 21 more days till May 1st. I am 24 lbs down 6lbs more to go! I think I am going to make it... I don't think I have ever met a goal like this before. I am excited. Very blessed to know through Yahushua I will have lost 30lbs... 30LBS! wow.
Though my goal for 30lbs will be over I will be starting up another... Not for sure just yet but I'll keep you posted. I am still on my quest for a Candida Free body... I have been on it for almost 4 weeks... I've noticed my hand has cleared up a bunch but I'm still getting the itch intensely. Now I have been battling Candida for almost 8 years.... so I know it is going to take time for my body to shed the problems I've had for so long. I'm still heading toward June12th to be the day I can add a little sweetness back into my life. CHOCOLATE! lol.... haha well hopefully I will be strong enough to never go back to the wayward way of eating as I had before. (too much to be accountable too!) here in the next week or so I will be adding little bits of fruit that has the less amount of fructose in them. like: green apples, blackberries, blueberries... mainly just the berries. I am excited I have been missing them intensely! I have also missed my Goat's Milk and in saying that I have a confession to make Yesterday I had a amazingly cold glass of fresh raw Goats milk! It was nice.... oh soooooo nice. But I must be careful to not do that very often. (But I may sneak a few more in once in a while depending how my body takes to it.) I do feel I am lacking calcium and vitamin C. if anyone has some great idea's on getting it naturally without supplement, please let me know.... I need to look into what vegetables have the better amount of those vitamins and minerals.
Besides that the weather is warming up here (finally!), so I should be enjoying the outdoors more and getting more exercise running around with my three year old, who just got a soccer ball for his B-day! with his little brother and sister.
Here these last few days, I have been thinking on modesty... mainly because being out one day with my husband and baby girl Lily, we encountered a season fashion show that scares me. What I mean is while eating at the Pita pit in Waterloo, the little deli was packed with young girls wearing very very immodest clothing and it really provoked me to want to strive for a more set-apart and modest lifestyle. Hopefully I will be writing more this topic as I keep running this race.
I must end here but i leave you with this scripture given to me yesterday on my quest to encourage modesty!
May we cleanse our hearts so the outward shines forth towards messiah!
Also check out "Sowers of Hope" blog. They have wonderful links to many many modesty messages!!
Love you all, Yahweh Bless,
Let's Run!
Sady
Heb 12:1 We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2 looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.
Though my goal for 30lbs will be over I will be starting up another... Not for sure just yet but I'll keep you posted. I am still on my quest for a Candida Free body... I have been on it for almost 4 weeks... I've noticed my hand has cleared up a bunch but I'm still getting the itch intensely. Now I have been battling Candida for almost 8 years.... so I know it is going to take time for my body to shed the problems I've had for so long. I'm still heading toward June12th to be the day I can add a little sweetness back into my life. CHOCOLATE! lol.... haha well hopefully I will be strong enough to never go back to the wayward way of eating as I had before. (too much to be accountable too!) here in the next week or so I will be adding little bits of fruit that has the less amount of fructose in them. like: green apples, blackberries, blueberries... mainly just the berries. I am excited I have been missing them intensely! I have also missed my Goat's Milk and in saying that I have a confession to make Yesterday I had a amazingly cold glass of fresh raw Goats milk! It was nice.... oh soooooo nice. But I must be careful to not do that very often. (But I may sneak a few more in once in a while depending how my body takes to it.) I do feel I am lacking calcium and vitamin C. if anyone has some great idea's on getting it naturally without supplement, please let me know.... I need to look into what vegetables have the better amount of those vitamins and minerals.
Besides that the weather is warming up here (finally!), so I should be enjoying the outdoors more and getting more exercise running around with my three year old, who just got a soccer ball for his B-day! with his little brother and sister.
Here these last few days, I have been thinking on modesty... mainly because being out one day with my husband and baby girl Lily, we encountered a season fashion show that scares me. What I mean is while eating at the Pita pit in Waterloo, the little deli was packed with young girls wearing very very immodest clothing and it really provoked me to want to strive for a more set-apart and modest lifestyle. Hopefully I will be writing more this topic as I keep running this race.
I must end here but i leave you with this scripture given to me yesterday on my quest to encourage modesty!
Mat 23:26 “Blind Pharisee, first clean the inside of the cup and dish, so that the outside of them becomes clean too.
May we cleanse our hearts so the outward shines forth towards messiah!
Also check out "Sowers of Hope" blog. They have wonderful links to many many modesty messages!!
Love you all, Yahweh Bless,
Let's Run!
Sady
Heb 12:1 We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2 looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.
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