Day 21... A realization!

All my life I thought I battled with weight, I thought that was my problem. Yet, it isn't the weight I battle it is the choices and self-control I battle. The weight is just fruit of my decisions..... It is the finished product of that that I do, so to speak my "harvest". I have always blamed the weight, not the issue. Now I'm fixing the issue and excited to see the old fruit become less visible (lol meaning losing weight). There is still plenty there, but day by day I am going to work at it. Learn from it and not make the same mistakes again (or so it is my prayer). I finally understand! Thank You Yahweh.


Let's RUN!

Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

Day 20 - Habitual Clockwork!

   

    This has surely been an amazing 20 days. I've learned about my weaknesses and I have learned about my habitual practices! It's funny how the word "habitual" has become so much a part of me without even knowing it. Like, I invited it to come and live with me. Be who I am and enjoy it's presence. When I say Habitual clockwork, I mean there is a certain time that my body starts to crave a sweet treat, I get up and walk into the kitchen, open the cabinets and scan hoping to find the perfect tasty treat to satisfy this everyday need to make "my will" happy. Funny? Right? Well now that I am understanding this clockwork, I'm learning I've neglected self-control or in another word "temperance". 

Temperance
TEM'PERANCE, n. [L. temperantia, from tempero.]

1. Moderation; particularly, habitual moderation in regard to the indulgence of the natural appetites and passions; restrained or moderate indulgence; as temperance in eating and drinking; temperance in the indulgence of joy or mirth. Temperance in eating and drinking is opposed to gluttony and drunkenness, and in other indulgences, to excess.

2. Patience; calmness; sedateness; moderation of passion.

Gal 5:22  But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, trustworthiness,
Gal 5:23  gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no Torah.



 I have allowed my body to dictate what it wants when it wants it. Wow! But this is wrong, this is not good, I have allowed myself to become lazy in the area of self-discipline and self-control. I am praying to be completely restored from these feelings, these practices that have allowed itself to be me. I know I have been wrong, I did this to myself. So of course I am reaping that that I have sowed into my harvest.. 


2Pe 1:5  And for this reason do your utmost to add to your belief uprightness, to uprightness knowledge,
2Pe 1:6  to knowledge self-control, to self-control endurance, to endurance reverence,
2Pe 1:7  to reverence brotherly affection, and to brotherly affection love.
2Pe 1:8  For if these are in you and increase, they cause you to be neither inactive nor without fruit in the knowledge of our Master יהושע Messiah.

 Exciting isn't it! I am excited because I know I am on this course.... I have bridled this habitual clockwork and have said "NO MORE". It is one step at a time, as I walk this journey I have had my moments of weakness, those moments that I almost said "I quit" but I didn't... I truly feel proud of myself, I don't know if I have ever felt this way before. When I can look at myself and know I have not given in. I feel amazing... I feel more energy. I feel more joy. I sing more! haha....

  It is still there though... this clockwork. So I am fighting this battle everynight. I ask for your prayers once more, that I would be strong and that I would RUN THIS RACE! fervently and steadfastly! HalleluYAH!

1Co 9:24  Do you not know that those who run in a race indeed all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way as to obtain it.
1Co 9:25  And everyone who competes controls himself in every way. Now they do it to receive a corruptible crown, but we for an incorruptible crown.
1Co 9:26  Therefore I run accordingly, not with uncertainty. Thus I fight, not as one who beats the air.
1Co 9:27  But I treat my body severely and make it my slave, so that when I have proclaimed to others, I myself might be rejected. 

    What a statement! I pray I too would run in such a way and not look back. I don't want a corruptible crown, just victory in these area's that I have lacked in. I am working towards that goal....

 Rom 6:12  Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, to obey it in its desires,
Rom 6:13  neither present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to Elohim as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to Elohim.  

1Co 6:19  Or do you not know that your body is the Dwelling Place of the Set-apart Spirit who is in you, which you have from Elohim, and you are not your own?
1Co 6:20  For you were bought with a price, therefore esteem Elohim in your body and in your spirit,1 which are of Elohim. 

1Pe 1:18  knowing that you were redeemed from your futile way of life inherited from your fathers, not with what is corruptible, silver or gold,
1Pe 1:19  but with the precious blood of Messiah, as of a lamb unblemished and spotless,




HalleluYAH, so much to look forward to through Yahushua Messiah! Yay! For now I end with a prayer.

   Abba, Yahweh. Forgive me for my ways, these destructive ways that have caused me to lose sight of freedom. I ask you to help me in this time to overcome these temptations. To overcome this lifestyle of indulgence. Heal me! if there is any hurt, I pray I would understand and forgive and move forward not looking back. I need Your strength. I pray for my fellow brothers and sisters as they journey along this path to overcome what besets them. We love You! it is in Yahushua's name I pray! Amien.

Let's RUN!

Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

 

Day 13... Noticing My Surroundings

  Thursday I went to the city with a friend of mine, we did some shopping, just picking up some odds and ends. When checking out at these stores I had to walk through isle's of gourmet goodies, tasty chocolates and fancy candies. I was surprised at how enticing it all was and how yummy it would be to sample some of it. It hit me how easy it was to reach out and grab these things and not think twice about it, to indulge in it because it was there for all to see and all to enjoy (once bought). I did not fall for this ply, but it was another test of "am I capable to succeed on the journey!" That day I was.... 


2Co 2:14  But thanks be to Elohim who always leads us on, to overcome in Messiah, and manifests through us the fragrance of His knowledge in every place.

  Thankful that I overcame these isle's I realized then I needed to take up my Armour! I have to be ready before hand to say "no" (something my husband always encourages me with, THANK YOU GABE!)... To fight the good fight (not just about food) but for other temptation and sin that is seeking it's prey.

Eph 6:10  For the rest, my brothers, be strong in the Master and in the mightiness of His strength.
Eph 6:11  Put on the complete armour of Elohim, for you to have power to stand against the schemes of the devil.
Eph 6:12  Because we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against authorities, against the world-rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual matters of wickedness in the heavenlies.
Eph 6:13  Because of this, take up the complete armour of Elohim, so that you have power to withstand in the wicked day, and having done all, to stand.
Eph 6:14  Stand, then, having girded your waist with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,
Eph 6:15  and having fitted your feet with the preparation of the Good News of peace;
Eph 6:16  above all, having taken up the shield of belief with which you shall have power to quench all the burning arrows of the wicked one.
Eph 6:17  Take also the helmet of deliverance, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of Elohim,1 Footnote: 1Isa. 59:21.
Eph 6:18  praying at all times, with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, watching in all perseverance and supplication for all the set-apart ones;
Eph 6:19  also for me, that a word might be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to be bold in making known the secret of the Good News, 

   I am going to gird up! Not saying that food or certain types of sugar are evil or sinful but for me it did play a role of satisfaction. I no longer desire that feeling from these simple and worthless foods. Foods that offer nothing to my body but complication or intense relief from hormonal problems (lol!) When reading the above scriptures I am encouraged that I can do it. Yahweh has made it possible to overcome all things through Messiah.... I don't have to be on my own in this journey I have one who sticks closer than a brother!

Pro 18:24  A man of many friends might come to ruin, But there is a Loving One Who sticks closer than a brother!

  On this Sabbath I pray you all find rest and that you all find victory in those things that might bog you down, might not be sweets or weight but whatever it is, YOU have every ability to overcome through Messiah.

Let's RUN!

Sady 

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

 

Day 10

     I am really in awe that I have not had candy, chocolate or a sugary dessert for 10 days. ( I'm going be vulnerable for a minute) I like sweets, all kinds, I also love to bake. So not doing so or not eating sugar really shocks me. It has been a part of my life since, since... I don't know when. It saddens me to think about that but it also encourages me to know I am overcoming. I am overcoming a hold that has been on me for many years. It's silly! I know.... But it's the truth. I sit here shaking my head almost ready to start laughing but then again it makes me want to cry, cry because I have had this drive but didn't know how to pursue it, I allowed my flesh to rule and reign over me. I'm not saying for the rest of my life I will not eat sweets but I will use discipline..... but I am not going to talk about that right now since I am not having sweets till May! Better stop thinking about how I am going to eat something I won't be eating for a while. haha. 

     So if you my friends are on the same path as me, I pray you have great success and victory in this area of your life. I know what it means to want to feel freedom in an area that has caused frustration for who knows how long. If we follow His precepts we will find ourselves strengthen and acting wisely. It reminds me of Joshua 1:8..

Jos 1:8  “Do not let this Book of the Torah depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you guard to do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and act wisely.
    
    I know overcoming can only come through one source and that is Yahushua Messiah (remember Yahushua also followed these precepts because He was the word made flesh John 1:14 and Matt 5:17). He took it all on.... everything that easily overcomes us he took on at the stake. Isaiah 53

Isa 53:4  Truly, He has borne our sicknesses and carried our pains. Yet we reckoned Him stricken, smitten by Elohim, and afflicted.
Isa 53:5  But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our crookednesses. The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.

     I pray Yahweh strength you on your journey, whatever it may be! I pray you have strength to overcome and become victorious through Messiah Yahushua! HalleluYAH!


  Let's run...

Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

 

Day 8. In my moments.

 I have moments when I feel powerless. I have moments when I feel overwhelmed. I have moments that I feel weak. I have chosen not to allow those moments dictate my life.




 After a pretty great weekend, I am ready to start this week! Actually quite pumped! I have lost about 7lbs..... YAY!




 I have been drinking 111oz of water a day, seeing that that is half my weight. I heard from a friend that a person is in need of drinking half of your body weight (at least) in water, I can understand that! It hasn't been easy and there are more potty breaks but I'm feeling good, like I have more stamina. I'm trying to drink 64 oz in the morning than 64oz in the afternoon.... tapering off at about 6pm. (so that at night I do not have to go to the bathroom while I'm sleeping) I have this handy 64oz Mega MUG that makes for keeping me accountable. I always like to lift it up so I can feel if I have been drinking enough. It makes for a nice reminder and Shiloh and Silas help me drink from it too, they enjoy having some mega mug as well.



 I finish with this:

Deu 6:20  “When your son asks you in time to come, saying, ‘What is the meaning of the witnesses, and the laws, and the right-rulings which יהוה our Elohim has commanded you?’
Deu 6:21  then you shall say to your son, ‘We were slaves of Pharaoh in Mitsrayim, and יהוה brought us out of Mitsrayim with a strong hand,
Deu 6:22  and יהוה sent signs and wonders, great and grievous, upon Mitsrayim, upon Pharaoh, and upon all his household, before our eyes.
Deu 6:23  ‘And He brought us out from there, to bring us in, to give us the land of which He swore to our fathers.
Deu 6:24  ‘And יהוה commanded us to do all these laws, to fear יהוה our Elohim, for our good always, to keep us alive, as it is today.
Deu 6:25  ‘And it is righteousness for us when we guard to do all this command before יהוה our Elohim, as He has commanded us.’

  We have freedom through Messiah Yahushua to overcome all that try's to burden us down. Yahweh gave us so much to make our lives good! That is what I'm trying to live out, knowing I can come out of Mitsrayim (Egypt) Out of bondage (my weight) to a land (wholeness) that was given to me. to my children. to my childrens children! FREEDOM!

Let's Run.........


Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

 

     

Day 5..... The Test.

  We get four dozen eggs delivered to our door every Friday morning, Jane (our farm fresh egg lady) brought us our usual eggs and something extra special. Little V. day candy bars in a ziplock bag. DUN DUN DUN..... haha! Jane has blessed us periodically with little treats and toys for the children. I was a little nervous when I saw them, but after a few minutes I was like "who cares?" "I don't!" Then after briefly talking to my husband about how sweet Jane is and asking him if he would like to eat them for himself, he said " fleshly it'd be nice, but I'm sticking with you and our thing!" HalleluYAH!....After just a few minutes off the phone I pitched them into the trash.... Goodbye temptation! Hello Victory!
    
  Not that Jane's Heart wasn't in the right, but it was time for me to make a choice. We did.... We said no to the old person and Shalom to the new creation! Plus I wasn't going to give them to my children. They are my healthy babies!


  I am truly amazed at How much He love us, and how He longs to see us set free. 

Rom 6:22  But now, having been set free from sin, and having become servants of Elohim, you have your fruit resulting in set-apartness, and the end, everlasting life. 

Joh 8:36  “If, then, the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.


So my Friends...... Let's RUN!

Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

Day 4

   Wow, Only four days in and I truly feel great! The best thing I know I have done is I have gotten rid of the sugar, the innocent little piece's of sugar that lie around waiting for a human to devour & consume it. haha. Yep, I used to always tell myself it won't bother me having it the house. I am strong! I can refuse it's temptation... Yeah... NO, I was ridiculously wrong. I am weak, I am so weak when it comes to sugar, it takes up this helpless form that says "hi" "I'm your friend".... LoL okay I am not that weird but I guess I am really seeing how weak I truly am. I know you must be thinking once again, "wow! sady, you are a glutton." Yep, I have been. Something I am not proud of, something that makes me very sad! I am seeing though that this weakness is good, I'm not prefect. Have I been trying to be? Good question.

   So with the sugar gone (meaning any pre-made sweetened fancy), which we gave it away to some friends of ours (sorry Messer Family) which was Hot cocoa mix, chocolate chips and animal cookies...(I still have baking sugar but don't use it) So with the sugary goods gone, i'm finding it alot easier than I thought. Well, you know, not seeing it helps to not eat it. Though at night, it can be hard with that lingering feeling like I need something else. Something tasty and creamy! I want to laugh at that... but then I'm like... whoa. (Sigh) I am thankful He is still at work in me. 
   
 Once Again the words to my song "Yahweh's Girl"


                                    "I'm Here, I'm Now"

                    "Breaking strongholds, Watching walls fall."

   What can I say to encourage, when I, myself have fought this battle for so long and have failed constantly. All I know is prayer is a big deal in this thing. I could not do it without my heavenly Father picking me up and saying "it's okay" I'm right here". He has to be in every part of this effort. There is NO vain glory, there is NO "look at ME time!". I am not wanting to lose weight to see myself in a "bikini" or "little black dress", I want to see myself running around with my children, jogging & riding bikes with my Husband. I want to see a fully restored woman that no longer battles with the ugly in herself (meaning disease and sickness and fat). Also I am finding sleep is a big deal... I need it.
    
    I was encouraged by my sweet and dear sis, Reese with some scriptures that have encouraged her on her path to attaining freedom in the weight area as well. They now encourage my Race I'm running....

1Co 6:19  Or do you not know that your body is the Dwelling Place of the Set-apart Spirit who is in you, which you have from Elohim, and you are not your own?
1Co 6:20  For you were bought with a price, therefore esteem Elohim in your body and in your spirit, which are of Elohim. 

I Corinthians 10:31 Therefore, whatever you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the Esteem of Elohim.

    Yes, HalleluYAH, in all I do, I pray I do it in honor of my Yahweh most high! I have forgotten that, especially when it comes to eating. I have forgotten that when I do things or eat things. I am doing unto Him! He created me, He designed me and my body to work a certain way, but I have chosen my own paths. Though Praise YAHWEH most High I am back and I am going to do this. I am going to change! I'm going to run this race.... looking to My Messiah Yahushua, who paved the way!

Php 4:13  I have strength to do all, through Messiah who empowers me.     
    

  As much as this has been a good journey (only 4 days) it has been an emotional one. I see these things, these habits that are fully graved in me. For the first time I don't want them. For the first time instead of thinking "what I'm missing" by not being able to eat them, I'm like why did I need them in the first place! Another Good question...... ?? Hopefully down this path I'll be answering these Questions.

  
  Okay I bet your wondering have I lost weight, what exercise am I doing?? Well first off I'm not for sure on weight just yet cause my scale is a clunker, so I have to wait to tell you that. I'm wanting/looking for a modest (clothed) workout video that I could do while my boys are napping! Let me know if you know of one!

 Workout Family Style: 200 sit-ups every other day (on my workout ball)
                                 50 sit-ups those "other" days
                                                 Leg lifts of all kind's
            Leg Lifts with a 42 lb & 30lb weight in the form of a 1 & 2yr old boy
                          Arm lifts w/ my boys and push-ups (off my workout ball)
* if you have some great workout advice, don't be shy! TELL ME!
    
   

   My little fella's are the greatest motivators, they get me going! We have this time at night right before bed called "Pillow Patch and tickle time!" Where we all get down and jump and roll in a huge pile of pillows and blankets. it is quite the favorite in our home.
   For my children I long to be the momma who chose to be better for them, who chose to be the one playing not the one sitting on her rump cause she is too tired.


  

 So for now I end with this: 


Rom 8:28  And we know that all matters work together for good to those who love Elohim, to those who are called according to His purpose.

     I have a purpose, I pray I fulfill that purpose! Please keep me in your prayers...... Let's RUN!

Sady


Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

Thus it begins.....

     

    I am a 26 year old Help-meet to my wonderful Husband Gabriel, mother of 3 amazing children, Shiloh, Silas and Lily & a musician called forth by Yahweh most high to praise and lift up HIS set-apart name. I am also overweight, I have been since I was 12 years old. I hate it... my whole life I have hated it. For 14 years I've tried everything and to no avail I am still here, mostly because I have NO discipline in the area of food and maintaining a good workout routine. Yes I eat good, clean food! But I don't stay away from the things that inhibit weight gain! I enjoy (really) eating food, I love taste and favor, I love sweets and carbs! haha.... I hope you aren't thinking to yourself ... Glutton! But you'd be right. It is very hard to admit that, for so long I justified that "well, it's kosher and homemade, no artifical color or ingredients... so I'm good!" Hahaha... Please don't think I fooled myself, it was just an excuse! I have seen this weight for 14 years, I've been hurt by it, I've been bruised by it, I've heard the ugly words from others. I'm still working on the reasons I've allowed myself to let this go on so long. But I'm here now and ready, I feel truly ready to see myself changed. Not just on the outward but inward as well.

As the words in my song "Yahwehs Girl" : 
  
                                           "I'm here, I'm Now"                
                        "breaking strong holds, watching walls fall."

   This is the written journey to that goal.... I know the question that runs through my mind all the time is what makes this different from all the times before?? Well, I can't answer that, but I can say I've seen somethings in my life and in others that makes change possible or a MUST! Plus I have 3 babies that look to me for direction. How can I lead them straight if my very own path gets sidelined. I know I will make mistakes and have those step backs. But I'm in it.... I am here and I am willing to be disciplined!

  I weight 223lbs. Not easy for me to say aloud or write openly. But I am ready to be accountable, to be encouraged, to be different. I want my witness to be true! True and encouraging! 

 My first goal is the lose 30lbs..... by May 1st..... dun dun dun! That is 82 days from today. Yes I am aiming HIGH... but I have reasons, plus I have an amazing Husband who is a big encourager and strength in helping me on this journey. 

No sweets.... No chocolate.... No white flour/No refined white sugar!
No desserts... No excuses...

More Raw, More Vegetables, Yummy Smoothies! 

I am using Stevia for my teas and raw honey/maple syrup for recipes.

I ask for your prayers, Your encouragement and accountability! I want this for myself, my husband, my children but I also want to be a witness of Yahweh's restoration in my life.

Php 4:13  I have strength to do all, through Messiah who empowers me.

Sady~

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.