Morning of Reflection

     Good Morning, my home it quite at this time….. silence is nice once in a while, even though my thoughts are screaming the comfort of the ticking clock drowns them out. I’m on day 18! It has been a unique journey. I have found strength and praise Yah have overcome many many battles that threaten my point of doing this.

      It is Sabbath day prep but before I hurry myself around getting things ready I am wanting to share a few things from this journey! I’m going to go back to day 2… What an extremely hard yet break through day!

     Gabe needed to go to the city and we (Our 3 children and myself) went with him to do our monthly shopping beside getting all his items for his jobs. This was also the day that my dad went in for his Pacemaker, and Gabe let me know money would be so tight that we could only get stuff of extreme need because our food budget went down more. So lets just say I was trying not to be emotional, besides being hungry!! Well the first part of our morning went semi-well, yet the hustle and bustle of people shopping got a little unnerving. But it wasn’t until we got all my shopping done and had to finish up with Gabe’s that things started turning for the worst… an item that Gabe needed to get for his job did not exist but he was told it had and based his whole job on it (lets just say not fun!) So my poor Hubby had to rethink out his plan right there and that took an overwhelmingly amount of time, time that almost caused the momma of a 3, 2 and 1 year old to go MAD! Not to top it off with my dad’s surgery going a little long with few difficult things going on in his chest but also wanting to comfort my mom even though she was strong and full of complete peace! Right there in those agonizing 4 hours in this store, 2 of those hours being in the same isle… I was angry! In my mind I had quit my fast and Gabe was going to take me to a FINE dining establishment and I was going to eat to my hearts content, but where was Gabriel’s help meet? Where was the support and comfort he needed in his time of frustration and confusion? I finally helped him but it wasn’t with a loving heart!!! I can’t remember when it hit me (think leaving the parking lot and rest of the trip) but it finally hit me of my heart towards my husband. I was willing to cover my bitterness with food, comfort food, food that pretty much said oh I like you again Gabe. Please forgive my brutal honesty but it is true, FOOD food food food!!  It was going to comfort me, make me better! How ugly, how pathetic? Oh super pathetic! In that moment of realizing I was crushed. Though Gabe would have probably never known it but I sat there amazed I had come this far! That I dealt with certain things by eating, I know I have had this thought before but It struck me even harder because I was on this fast… I could no longer rely on food to comfort me in my time of frustration or loneliness…. That I had to face these feelings abruptly! I couldn’t turn but go straight forward to the problem and either stew or face facts and repent. Praise YAHWEH, I repented! I saw a glimpse that I pray I never ever see again. I will say I still am asking Yah to help me understand all this, to help break the curse I put on myself. To break and burn the roots I have allowed to become rooted in my life. It has taken a lot to download all I feel He is showing me…. I don’t want to download and then put it in a file that gets neglected because I have so many other files that need cleaning out… So I ask for more of your prayers!!

Psa 61:2  From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.  

Since day 2 I have come into many scripture about strength and shelter!! Praise Yahweh!!

Psa 62:2  He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defence; I shall not be greatly moved.

Psa 62:5  My being, find rest in Elohim alone, Because my expectation is from Him.

Psa 62:6  He alone is my rock and my deliverance, my strong tower; I am not shaken.

I must end for now, for my home is buzzing with little feet and hungry bellies!! Yahweh bless and encourage you through your time of fasting or prayer or anything, that you too would find comfort.

Shalom!

Sady

A New Season!

What can make a person say I'm going to change today, I'm going to do something different. I'm going to go beyond me and find what it is that will make me more than I am at this very moment....... Well... let me tell ya.

I won't go into detail but lets just say a lot has been going on with our family. It has been a rough season so far, but like a good Father He is revealing Himself to us stronger and mightier than ever before. It might not be instant fixing of the problems but more the conditioning of the child! I wish I could say I enjoy it! That, that it is a blessing, but to be truthful it is hard pressed and downright life altering and sometimes I'm not comfortable with that, but it is not really up to me is it? It is up to Him. He called us out.... have you heard that voice?

Since last month I was kind of on a down slope with just about all that had to do with me! Not to say that I didn’t turn to Yahweh but just that I was in a funk!?! During this “funk” (forgive the word but only one that really describes my feeling) many things happened and I was like “sigh, I don’t want to be here in this physical state!” This is not what Yahweh intended for me, for me to feel or for me to function. Things may not change for sometime in certain area’s but I knew that my heart and actions had too because they were not the bearer of Light! Meaning the bearer of Yahushua! That is what I want to be, as a Wife, Momma, musician, friend, sister, daughter and complete stranger!!!   
Well…. So begins (or continuing of) the journey of becoming me:

 F'AST, v.i.

1. To abstain from food, beyond the usual time; to omit to take the usual meals, for a time; as, to fast a day or a week.

2. To abstain from food voluntarily, for the mortification of the body or appetites, or as a token of grief, sorrow and affliction.

(my fast consist of drinking water, herb tea and some raw milk. Plus a mid-morning Smoothie of fruits and vegetables and that's it.)

Have you ever felt the Ruach (set-apart spirit) stir you? Like He was empowering you to a purpose, that’s what I felt...

 Psa 27:8  To my heart You have said, “Seek My face.” Your face, יהוה, I seek.

That honestly feels like it was written just for me! (In all truth it was, when you think about your relationship with our Yahweh, it is all you and Him. You get my picture?) I’ve had this stirring for sometime, just couldn’t grasp what it was I was to do, but maybe that is how He was able to make my actions and my attitude so clear in my time to finally grab a hold.
So as you have probably guessed I am fasting. Not a full throttle no water, no food. But a very simple and humbling fast. I do drink water and herbal tea and I have one smoothie mid-morning which consist of fruits, vegetables and raw milk. I am on day 11. It has been quite life altering right now, especially in me seeing my habits before my eyes! Yahweh has given strength, peace and endurance. I’m not for sure how long I will keep on this fast but for now I am to keep going. I wasn’t going to speak about it to many, but I feel like this could encourage you, whoever you are! Not to do a fast but to know you are not alone, life is hard. Life can be stressful, life can be ugly! But your life needs to be in Yahushua. Because I know even in the rough times HE is there, HE will provide, HE will direct, HE will comfort, HE will SAVE, and HE will strengthen. I am living proof that nothing is too difficult for HIM!

Isa 40:28  Did you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting Elohim, יהוה, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.

Isa 40:29  He gives power to the faint, and to those who have no might He increases strength.

Isa 40:30  Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men stumble and fall,

Isa 40:31  but those who wait on יהוה renew their strength, they raise up the wing like eagles, they run and are not weary, they walk and do not faint.

So for now I end here. There will be more to come for I have many stories so far from this fast, but in closing I ask you.... Please pray for me, not just your everyday "help sady, Yahweh." But stand in agreement with me to change, for my body to be restored and my thoughts be on Him, that true change would alter our families life. NO going back!  I love you all.... May Yahweh through His son Yahushua bless you abundantly!!




Sady

Prayer for my Family!

We need your prayers for my papa, he is going in tomorrow morning for a pacemaker... this has been a hard road. thank you.

Yahweh's Woman.

She is more then a dishwasher and diaper changer. She is a chef, a green thumb, wholesome fashion designer, arts guru, M.D., teacher and philosopher, Hair stylist, home interior decorator, landscaper, homemaker, baker, lover, poet, speaker, critic, artist. She does it with her children by-her-side while satisfying and honoring her Husband.... See you don't have to leave home to be fulfilled.... Her career is all in one and makes her more then any career... Take back your home! Proverbs 31 and Titus 2:3-5... 

 let the simple words draw the bigger picture!!

 Pro 31:10  Who does find a capable wife? For she is worth far more than rubies.
Pro 31:11  The heart of her husband shall trust her, And he has no lack of gain.
Pro 31:12  She shall do him good, and not evil, All the days of her life.
Pro 31:13  She shall seek wool and flax, And with delight she works with her hands.
Pro 31:14  She shall be as the ships of Tarshish, She brings in her food from afar.
Pro 31:15  She also rises while it is still night, And provides food for her household, And a portion for her girls.
Pro 31:16  She shall consider a field and buy it; From her profits she shall plant a vineyard.
Pro 31:17  She shall gird herself with strength, And strengthen her arms.
Pro 31:18  She shall taste when her gain is good; Her lamp does not go out by night.
Pro 31:19  She shall stretch out her hands to the distaff, And her hand shall hold the spindle.
Pro 31:20  She shall extend her hand to the poor, And she shall reach out her hands to the needy.
Pro 31:21  She is not afraid of snow for her household, For all her household is dressed in scarlet.
Pro 31:22  She shall make tapestry for herself; She is dressed in fine linen and purple.
Pro 31:23  Her husband is known in the gates, When he sits among the elders of the land.
Pro 31:24  She shall make fine linen and sell them, And shall give girdles for the merchants.
Pro 31:25  Strength and splendour are her garments, And she rejoices in time to come.
Pro 31:26  She shall open her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the Torah of kindness.
Pro 31:27  She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness.
Pro 31:28  Her children shall rise up and call her blessed; Her husband too, and he praises her:
Pro 31:29  “Many daughters have done nobly, But you have risen over them all.”
Pro 31:30  Loveliness is deceptive And prettiness is vain, A woman who fears יהוה is to be praised.
Pro 31:31  Give her of the fruit of her hands, And let her works praise her in the gates. 

Tit 2:3  the older women likewise are to be set-apart in behaviour, not slanderers, not given to much wine, teachers of what is good,
Tit 2:4  in order for them to train the young women to love their husbands, to love their children,
Tit 2:5  to be sensible, blameless, workers at home, good, subject to their own husbands, in order that the word of Elohim is not evil spoken of.

Cluttered Victory..... One of many post about our changing Life!

Cluttered Victory! (part 1 of many parts that will come as life moves on!)

At 26 (almost 27), I finally see some things that I have been in need of seeing. Not that I am or have ever been a hoarder but I found myself buying things just because I thought they were cute or that I just wanted them…. But with months gone by I haven’t used them. Now I am wanting to throw them away, I really have no need for them nor do I care to wear them anymore but why at the moment of purchasing them did I have that “desirable need” feeling, that there was some kind of fulfillment in having it, when in fact it just added to the rest of my clutter and disarray of our growing household. Blah….. BLAH BLAH BLAH!! I hate it, I hate when I finally come to grips seeing myself and the worthless place I’ve come too, When allowing the things I have to become more important then the relationship I have with my Husband, my children and most importantly my Heavenly Father Yahweh and Yahushua His Son!! Today is a hard, yet a super overwhelming blessing of a day. A day where I feel Freedom, I feel that the things I have no longer tell me of who I am. That’s it….. I am not the things I have! I am seeing how cluttered my heart and home have been…. And let me tell ya, I live in a small house and the things may not seem very numerous to you but oh how they have consumed my daily life, where all I am doing is keeping up with the things I have. Did you just read that statement…. I have come to realize that the things I have make up my day, and I know if I skip one day fixing or cleaning or or or or or or … (sigh). Hmm.. hahaha. Let’s just say it takes me a while to get it back to order. 

    As I write you I feel like a changing woman. Not that it is going to be easy fighting against my flesh desire to keep the things I haven’t worn or used in the last six months or a year or ten years. But I guess my thought is if I haven’t used them and haven’t worn them then why do I need them… they don’t make my life easier just add more clutter and dirt. For example: I have a shirt that I have held onto for 10 years…. I have worn it maybe 5 times in those ten years. I held onto it cause it was pretty and then I gained weight and wanted it to be my goal to get back into, well I can wear it now but it still hangs there (Praise YAH! It is now in the pile along with other clothes that will be leaving my home and going to someone who will actually wear and be thankful for them) to me that is victory! May seem silly but oh how good it feels to look at my closet and know that I have worn these cloths the last few weeks. Not “oh I think I wore that a year ago?…” he he.

   Now I am not saying you can’t have things or enjoy things or be blessed with things. It’s just the question of what really matters and what is the point of it, will it help you or will it own you!?!? I want to free up some of this time I seem to spend by just cleaning what I own, to devote to more needed area’s in my life like my children, my Husband, music and YAHWEH! It’s not easy to face everyday knowing or feeling like you’re never going to get ahead. I know that through Yahushua, I will! It may take time, but He’s never forsaken me yet…. I know it is just getting better! HALLELUYAH!!

   Anywho… that is my story, my excited story about overcoming me and the victory I am beginning to see in the cluttered little house on the (soon to be) Iowa Tundra…. Hahahahah. Shalom!

My cautious one!

Shiloh is my very cautious, takes his time (not my type of time) kind of guy. He doesn't like to be pushed into anything he is not comfortable with. So we don't push him all the time if he is truly frightened or distressed about doing a certain thing, but then there are moment when we do push him cause we know the outcome will gain more once he is doing and will enjoy it! Well on the beautiful feast Yom Teruah, Shiloh challenged us by doing something that shocked that he was capable of doing (thank Yahweh I did not see it for I probably would have stressed out!). Let me set the scene:

(The obstacle!)

(The Height!)

Gabe & the children were outside flying a kite. Silas had the kite but let go of it (very windy day, that day) the kite ended up getting stuck on the top of the house. So Gabe had to go up on the roof to get it unstuck. His way of doing this was this: He stepped up on top of a rather large tool box behind the shed that stand right next to our house, from the tool box he climbed a small step stool ladder to the top of the shed from the shed roof to the house roof. So while Gabriel was detaching the kite from the house..... Little 3 year old Shiloh started his climb. His went like this: there are a few landscaping blocks to the side of the (rather large) tool box, he climbed them to the top of the tool box and from the tool box took the same small step stool ladder to the TOP of the SHED! Picture Shiloh STANDING mind you, on the top of this at least 8ft or 9ft tall shed. All this time (which probably wasn't too much) Gabe was on the roof of the house untangling this kite! He heard Shiloh talking to him at a unusual close distance. When he turned to look there stood Shiloh on top of the shed, all smiles (or at least I can picture this little boy grinning from ear to ear thinking he did something quite large in his point of view). In this very daunting moment for Gabe he tells Silas to go and get me & for Shiloh to sit down and not move (LOL), well by the time Silas (2yrs) comes in, he thinks he is in trouble, semi crying, gets sidetracked and forgets to tell me anything. So while this time was going on I still continued at my project (dinner making!) had NO idea my baby boy took another step towards growing up and changing from that true "baby" status.

(The Victor & his Mountain!) (the shed!)

 Finally when all was said and done... Gabe walks in with this startled look on his face and ask me why I didn't come out!! I started to get defensive as he asked me if Silas had told me to come out... I look at Silas and back at Gabe and said "NO, he said nothing to me just whined so I just thought he was in trouble and had to come in!" after that Gabe told me of our oldest boys brave adventure. That day My baby grew up just a little bit more, even his face shined this new look of adventure and victory. He had a stern talking to about not climbing like that unless Daddy or Mommy is with him and they say it is alright.   



Needless to say, we gave thanks to our Abba Yahweh, who kept HIS hand of protection over my boy & His messengers encamped about him.... Yah is Good & faithful!

Oh and Shiloh, he is surprising us everyday with his many wondrous ways!


Note the Lilies.....

Sady

My special cinnamon cherry bread!

Bread of Life...

Bread Making Day!


    Today I am investing my time in Bread making and Laundry! I funny mix I would say but besides my other important duties (like Child rearing) this day is a welcome joy! Seeing the fruit of my labour.

    While grinding I stopped and felt lead to read Ps 41. It blessed me, It gave me a grateful and thankful heart.  I want to give thanks to those that have helped my family in our times of need and have truly blessed us to prosper and grow. We know it is not in our own strength but that of Messiah Yahushua! But just wanted to write a quick note of my grateful Heart for those of you out there that have blessed us with your joy and your giving & your PURE LOVE for Messiah Yahushua and for others! I love you all.


Note the Lilies.....


Sady

THE NEW LOOK!

Mat 6:25  “Because of this I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you shall eat or drink, or about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than the food and the body more than the clothing?
Mat 6:26  “Look at the birds of the heaven, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into storehouses, yet your heavenly Father does feed them. Are you not worth more than they?
Mat 6:27  “And which of you by worrying is able to add one cubit to his life’s span?
Mat 6:28  “So why do you worry about clothing? Note well the lilies of the field, how they grow. They neither toil nor spin,
Mat 6:29  and I say to you that even Shelomoh in all his esteem was not dressed like one of these.
Mat 6:30  “But if Elohim so clothes the grass of the field, which exists today, and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more you, O you of little belief?
Mat 6:31  “Do not worry then, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’
Mat 6:32  “For all these the gentiles seek for. And your heavenly Father knows that you need all these.
Mat 6:33  “But seek first the reign of Elohim, and His righteousness, and all these matters shall be added to you.
Mat 6:34  “Do not, then, worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow shall have its own worries. Each day has enough evil of itself. 

   My life is in constant change! From nap schedules to diaper duty and potty training, to Gabe's altering business schedule! So much has changed since I first started my weight loss blog, but since Then I have lost 30lbs gained back 5lbs and now dropped back down 7lbs! This season I am in constant juggle of what is needed to be done in our household. So my blog has changed to just that.... something that fits with my homelife career... baking bread, washing cloths, teaching children, creativity in my home. learning to live without, learning to make it myself, learning to unlearn...... The point I guess is thriving in my environment while maintaining and losing weight. I am still on that trek to lose weight (& will be forever Running the Race) and be healthy but I am doing it in my daily walk, my daily life. While learning to use wisdom and discernment. Adjusting myself and learning to adapt in any situation, weighting out the consequences! So there you have it.... the new look and name of this HomeLife Journey! HalleluYAH! 


Note the Lilies,


Sady

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Yahweh Bless!


Sady

30 minutes done!

Crash and Burned but Back and Rebuilding!!

  Wow. What a busy and disappointing (eating wise) few months. I didn't succeed in my desire to keep going in my last plan. But I am back! I gained 5 lbs from my wayward eating. (Thankful it was only 5lbs!) 

   Gabe and I took a test on Dr. Mercola's website about nutritional type. Found out some pretty neat things about our diet and about the "traditional" breakfast and how it is actually not a great way to start our day. I found out I was a "mixed type" and Gabe was a "protein type". I am starting to put some of the stuff I have read to practice. The past few mornings I have been having a high protein breakfast consisting of: Chicken, Quinoa, eggs, & a vegetable. Sounds like dinner, doesn't it? But oh the energy I have have and how lite I felt afterwards to start my day. His plan encourages going Gluten-Free for the first 60 days, I haven't been completely doing that since my household has many glutenous foods, trying to eat it minimally until all is gone, would love the throw it out but being a "tight time" in our household, we need to be wise and not wasteful. So slowly I begin this change! But I am stopping the sugar again, except for like my tea's and I bet as time progresses I will get rid of that as well. 

 So I am beginning again. I have 79 days till Sukkot and my desire is to lose another 30lbs. I began this time with 84 days and I have been on this new thing for about 5 days. I have also added an exercise schedule to everyday (except Sabbath). Kind of like a " Me time", the children just play around me. 

 I ask for your prayers, I pray Yahweh give me strength! Help me to overcome the things that have easily beset me! AGAIN!

Yahweh Bless & LET'S RUN!

Sady K.

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

This is what I call "Squash Goulash" Spagetti Squash w/Steak, sauteed Carrots, gr peppers, onions, sweet potato, & feta cheese. seasoned w/some salt & pepper & oil. YUM!

Success!

The beginning!

just about 25lbs gone...

 Good morning my fellow runners! It has been a while since I posted, but I wanted you to know I met my goal of 30lbs in just under three months... Praise Yahweh! He is worthy to be praised, for it was only in His strength through Yahushua I was able to conquer my first goal, sad news is though I did not keep up on my Candida plan.... I know I am in need of getting back on it, because the last two weeks, well almost three I have been on a plato and I have been picking up on eating sweets. I want to use the excuse it was my 5th year anniversary to my wonderful and supporting Husband. But really there is no excuse... 

 I'm not wanting to stop. I have started my new goal of another 30lbs by August 16th. My desire is to lose 75lbs in the year of 2011... I've conquer 30lbs now I have 45 more to go! Yahoo!! 

 I ask you to keep me in your prayers for I know there are still many area's in my life that need work, I see so many things that came back into habit within only a week! Not good! But I see it.... I see it so clearly, I see how when I get tired I grab for something easy and fulfilling. I see that if I buy it I partake of it, even noticing how I have picked up on bigger portions and coming away feeling overly full and I do not like that feeling. So I'm starting to make these notes in my brain, I need to write them down so I can visibly see where my weaknesses lie. 

 One thing I know I need not to do is beat myself up... these last few weeks have been wonderful but also discouraging. I get to where I start thinking bad thoughts and I forget the great victory I have had and then begin focusing on the wrong choices I have made these past few weeks which lead to more wrong choices. Food has no hold on me, but I am seeing if I allow these negative thoughts to control my actions, I may fall prey to those temptations once more. So I'm learning that it is okay to have certain things as long as I can control the consumption of those certain things. 

 I'm excited to be wearing clothes that I haven't wore since before I was married. I put on my Wedding dress a month or so back! Shocked... That I was able to fit into it. What a rewarding feeling to see results!!  HalleluYAH!! Yahweh Be PRAISED!!

2Co 2:14  But thanks be to Elohim who always leads us on, to overcome in Messiah, and manifests through us the fragrance of His knowledge in every place.



 A bad habit I have picked up is stepping on the scale daily, almost several times daily... bad bad bad. I see how I allow what the scale says to alter my emotions. On Good days I'm jubilant but on bad days I'm down & thinking on all my mistakes. I'm now going to STOP daily scale reading leaving it to only once a week. Like making a special time for myself to write down my stats for the week, and maybe start making mini goals of changes or workouts... nothing to big just to help spice things up to keep me focused and not bored.

 My children and husband are my biggest influences in this time. Their joy and adventurous nature challenges me to desire that as well. I want to seek out adventures with them so we can work at this together. Here lately I have been walking/jogging around my backyard so the my boys can play and I can walk! haha it is quite funny and probably strange to my neighbors but I feel great knowing my children can have some fun playing while mommy can watch and walk at the same time. The boys think it is funny and they will try to get in my way and then I attack them with growls and tickles, then we both are caught up in giggles and then back to walking again. Sometimes they will even hold my hand  and walk with me, (more me dragging them along to keep up, I think they do that on purpose to get a free ride!) haha... Shiloh has even hitched a ride piggy-back style. So I'm learning to be creative in the "I have three children, three and younger, who can't be left behind!" So i make them part of my routine or whatever type of routine I have for the day. always seems to change periodically! daily! hourly! minutely! haha....

Psa 127:3  Look, children are an inheritance from יהוה, The fruit of the womb is the reward.

 And what a reward they are... 

 So I am excited for what lies ahead.... Please once again keep me in your prayers. I truly desire this set-apart healthy life style for myself and my family. I need guidance and strength through Messiah Yahushua that I can withstand against the enemy and his desire to see me fail.


Eph 6:10  For the rest, my brothers, be strong in the Master and in the mightiness of His strength.
Eph 6:11  Put on the complete armour of Elohim, for you to have power to stand against the schemes of the devil.
Eph 6:12  Because we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against authorities, against the world-rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual matters of wickedness in the heavenlies.
Eph 6:13  Because of this, take up the complete armour of Elohim, so that you have power to withstand in the wicked day, and having done all, to stand.
Eph 6:14  Stand, then, having girded your waist with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,
Eph 6:15  and having fitted your feet with the preparation of the Good News of peace;
Eph 6:16  above all, having taken up the shield of belief with which you shall have power to quench all the burning arrows of the wicked one.
Eph 6:17  Take also the helmet of deliverance, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of Elohim,1 Footnote: 1Isa. 59:21.
Eph 6:18  praying at all times, with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, watching in all perseverance and supplication for all the set-apart ones;
Eph 6:19  also for me, that a word might be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to be bold in making known the secret of the Good News,


 HalleluYAH! 

Let's RUN!


Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

 

Does a momma good!

This mornings smoothie! two handfuls spinach, 4oz carrot juice, 6oz coconut milk, three small slices of an apple, half of a medium banana, tablespoon vitamin mix, heaping tablespoon almond butter. blend baby blend! oh my word delicious and perfect blend of sweetness w/ a hint of creamy nuttiness!

Day 74/Day 41....In the hard times.

 I'm in a stage right now where moving forward and looking backwards at the same time is going to harm you. Especially your walk in Faith with Messiah. It's hard to explain, and really has nothing to do with my eating but has everything to do with my attitude and my strength. Which if failing can have an impact on my eating and my entire well being because as many as you know this flesh means nothing but my spiritual walk everything! Gabriel and I & our three little blessings are going through a time right now... or maybe it is just me! Meaning there is a path ahead of us but it has this HUGE question mark right in the middle of it.... I'm not saying it has to do with who we believe in, more just that the journey that lays ahead is one that is wide open to anything and everything...where, how, when and with whom? haha... I'm probably confusing you, aren't I! The unknown awaits us... but I'm more willing to control it so I have an idea of what's going on, instead of fully allowing Yahweh 100% control.

 I have a hard time adjusting to this type of faith... believing all things will be taken care of and I just sit back and wait..... and wait......... wait....... and wait some more. I know I sound bad. faithless. honestly I sound like a weepy brat who wants her way just cause it feels better than to have HIS WAY! I ask you to forgive me... but I'm really trying to understand this journey because I want it with my whole heart but I'm so afraid of the unknown that I become foolish and weak in my thinking and allow the enemy to have a Hay Day with my emotions, and yes that is all this is.... EMOTIONS... I have become emotional (I could justifie it because I am a mommy of 3 young children but that would be wrong, I'm still accountable none-the-less). unwilling to deal with the fact that all is being handled, it's just the "unknown factor". You'd think by now I would have learned because of course this is not the first time I've had to learn this lesson. Yet I'm still failing the execution to bring about courage and hope for whats to come. Maybe it's because I see it everyday... you know the home life, the waiting gets harder cause I'm the one moving about in the functions that become hard to function??? I know once again you must be thinking I've lost it! But I'm trying to write this like I feel inside. 

 So as I write I also become encouraged because I feel the Ruach show me examples of the unknown like the Israelite's coming out of Egypt! What more of the unknown could that be.... yet they too had there trials but they did end up making it to the Promise land (exdous 3 starts Moses journey.. but goes into many books..). Then there is The three hebrew servants Rack, Shack and Bendy! (Daniel 3) Actually their reals names were Hananiah, Azaryah and Mishel. Think of their unknown but yet that didn't stop them from Honoring their Heavenly Father even unto death if that be so. There are so many things that encourage me to quit straying with my mind and start trusting with my heart! 

Psa 39:7  “And now, יהוה, what do I wait for? My expectancy is in You.

Psa 37:9  For evil-doers are cut off; But those who wait on יהוה, They shall inherit the earth

Psa 42:5  Why are you depressed, O my being? And why are you restless within me? Wait for Elohim: for I shall yet thank Him, For the deliverance of His face!

Psa 52:9  I thank You forever, Because You have done it; And in the presence of Your kind ones I wait on Your Name, for it is good.

Psa 59:9  O my Strength, I wait for You; For Elohim is my strong tower, My Elohim of kindness.

Psa 71:14  But I continually wait, And shall praise You more and more.


There are many upon many scritpures that speak of waiting... But that last one hit me hard. I have forgotten to praise Him in this time. this time of the "unknown" I should be praising and lifting up my hands and heart and voice to my maker. It is so vital... yet I have missed that. I will truly tell you that I have felt it too.

  I must end here though (little ones need naps)... But I want you to know I'm going to choose to praise... I'm going to walk away from this laptop and lift my voice in prayer and thanksgiving for all the many blessings and beautiful gifts he has given and for what lies ahead. I will choose right this moment and offer up my praise and honor Him. For He is worthy of it all. I ask you though please keep us in your prayers for so many things lay ahead... I pray we walk rightly and righteously towards Yahushua Messiah! For that is all the is important...


HalleluYAH!


Let's RUN!


Sady

On this Sabbath I pray you all peace! It has been a very crazy and busy week this last week... I think Gabe & I could sleep for three days! LOL... Thankful that Passover is this coming monday evening! Such a beautiful time thinking of our Messiah & truly embracing this time as time for renewal! My heart & mind have been full of thoughts and things of this journey I'm on... truly looking back & seeing so many area's in my life I have kept unkept. I am seeing things I did or have done or doing that still need correction. You can break old habits but I'm making sure I don't make new ones that just fulfill the others yet in a different ways. I pray u all are blessed & seeing Yahweh manifest His will and direction as we embark on another beautiful Feast! Yahweh Bless...

I'm finding out as I work towards this goal (learning everday what the goal really is) it has not been easy, wayward thoughts & doubts some times lead me to think I will crumble... I am seeing myself and my actions with new eyes. I have stayed true to this race since the start.. but fears that I will fall hard bother me. The enemy some times puts things in my brain saying "you have't done anything, you'll just fail as before." Yet my King, my Creator has reminded me and keeps reminding me that it was not my strength that got me this far it was HIS... for those feeling weak, He will be your strength. Phil 4:13, john 14:26-27. Let's run!

Day 62/ Day 29 Don't eat the raw honey off you fingers.

LOL..... Yes, I have had to learn not the lick my fingers when finishing up a peanut butter and honey sandwich, or slicing up fruit. Not easy when that is all you're used to doing after you fix something for yourself or your little buddy in need of a tasty snack. I am reminded of this journey everyday, some days I'm like "Yeah, this is easy" others I'm like "oh, a piece of real chocolate would be Delightful." haha, I have stuck in there... I have 21 more days till May 1st. I am 24 lbs down 6lbs more to go! I think I am going to make it... I don't think I have ever met a goal like this before. I am excited. Very blessed to know through Yahushua I will have lost 30lbs... 30LBS! wow.

 Though my goal for 30lbs will be over I will be starting up another... Not for sure just yet but I'll keep you posted. I am still on my quest for a Candida Free body... I have been on it for almost 4 weeks... I've noticed my hand has cleared up a bunch but I'm still getting the itch intensely. Now I have been battling Candida for almost 8 years.... so I know it is going to take time for my body to shed the problems I've had for so long. I'm still heading toward June12th to be the day I can add a little sweetness back into my life. CHOCOLATE! lol.... haha well hopefully I will be strong enough to never go back to the wayward way of eating as I had before. (too much to be accountable too!) here in the next week or so I will be adding little bits of fruit that has the less amount of fructose in them. like: green apples, blackberries, blueberries... mainly just the berries. I am excited I have been missing them intensely! I have also missed my Goat's Milk and in saying that I have a confession to make Yesterday I had a amazingly cold glass of fresh raw Goats milk! It was nice.... oh soooooo nice. But I must be careful to not do that very often. (But I may sneak a few more in once in a while depending how my body takes to it.) I do feel I am lacking calcium and vitamin C. if anyone has some great idea's on getting it naturally without supplement, please let me know.... I need to look into what vegetables have the better amount of those vitamins and minerals.

 Besides that the weather is warming up here (finally!), so I should be enjoying the outdoors more and getting more exercise running around with my three year old, who just got a soccer ball for his B-day! with his little brother and sister.

 Here these last few days, I have been thinking on modesty... mainly because being out one day with my husband and baby girl Lily, we encountered a season fashion show that scares me. What I mean is while eating at the Pita pit in Waterloo, the little deli was packed with young girls wearing very very immodest clothing and it really provoked me to want to strive for a more set-apart and modest lifestyle. Hopefully I will be writing more this topic as I keep running this race.

I must end here but i leave you with this scripture given to me yesterday on my quest to encourage modesty!

Mat 23:26  “Blind Pharisee, first clean the inside of the cup and dish, so that the outside of them becomes clean too.

May we cleanse our hearts so the outward shines forth towards messiah!

Also check out "Sowers of Hope" blog. They have wonderful links to many many modesty messages!!

Love you all, Yahweh Bless,

Let's Run!
Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

Day 52/ Day 19..... 20lbs. GONE. YAYAYAYAYAYAYA!!

Okay so maybe I went overboard on the YAYAYAYAY But really YAYAYAYAYA!! I am so excited. I am so pumped! This is the most I have ever lost ever in one time. 

  How am I doing? I am doing great, been a few struggles but all in all I have stuck to the goal and the task at hand, which honestly really encourages me because I haven't been able to break these ugly things for so long and I sometimes mourn that I allowed it to be my comfort. I know I have said that many times in my blog and it may play like a broken record but I am still learning everyday.

  I have had to moderate my candida plan, meaning get rid of a few more things for just a couple weeks... like corn, potato's, sweet potato's, all different types of beans and the like. so I have down sized to not a big selection of food but I'm okay with that, I didn't come all this way to give up now. I'm learning that this isn't just a 83 day thing or a three month thing it is a forever change to my lifestyle. I no longer can exercise the way I used to live. I can no longer eat some of the things that were part of my everyday. I know you must be thinking but?? what?? then?? now?? how?? haha, well... I don't want that old nature back, I don't want to fall into a routine of junkie sady again, I want to keep myself accountable everyday to living a life that is simple and healthy.

2Co 5:17  Therefore, if anyone is in Messiah, he is a renewed creature – the old matters have passed away, see, all matters have become renewed!

Eph 4:22  that you put off – with regard to your former way of life – the old man, being corrupted according to the desires of the deceit,
Eph 4:23  and to be renewed in the spirit of your mind,
Eph 4:24  and that you put on the renewed man1 which was created according to Elohim, in righteousness and set-apartness of the truth.

 20lbs gone and that is just from eating differently, learning portion control, ignoring the cravings (which now rarely bother me), and enjoying my life with my family. I feel amazing, I'm not sure I can tell much of the weight change only by the way my cloths feel. I'm still in need of a good workout routine, but most of the time I don't have the time to do anything unless it is a walk and even now it have been to cold for the children to be riding around in the stroller. Hopefully soon though we will be outdoors again! Can't wait for those days...    

Psa 139:14  I give thanks to You, For I am awesomely and wondrously made! Wondrous are Your works, And my being knows it well.

 I can not begin to tell you the incredible strength I feel when I turn my days to my Heavenly Father and ask Him what should be my direction for each day. My prayer is that in all I do I do for Him! He isn't just someone I believe in casually, He is an important role in every area of who I am! So I give Him thanks and praise for all He has given me in this time! I'm not only shedding "my chubs" but I am shedding the "outer man".


2Co 4:15  For all this is for your sake, so that favour, having spread through the many, would cause thanksgiving to overflow, unto the esteem of Elohim.
2Co 4:16  Therefore we do not lose heart, but even if our outward man is perishing, the inward man is being renewed day by day.
2Co 4:17  For this slight momentary pressure, is working for us a far more exceeding and everlasting weight of esteem.
2Co 4:18  We are not looking on what is seen, but on what is not seen. For what is seen passes away, but what is not seen is everlasting. 

HalleluYah, I am very grateful that I haven't lost sight of what I am wanting to obtain. I want my heart to be pure as I journey this race. That I would not lose sight of my goal in being restored from the damage I have cause due to the lack of self-control. That I would hold on to the the words spoken in 1st Peter:

1Pe 3:8  To sum up, let all of you be like-minded, sympathetic, loving as brothers, tenderhearted, humble-minded,
1Pe 3:9  not returning evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary blessing, knowing that you were called to this, in order to inherit a blessing.
1Pe 3:10  For “He who wishes to love life and see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil, and his lips from speaking deceit,
1Pe 3:11  let him turn away from evil and do good, let him seek peace and pursue it.
1Pe 3:12  “Because the eyes of יהוה are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayers, but the face of יהוה is against those who do evil.”

Tit 2:3  the older women likewise are to be set-apart in behaviour, not slanderers, not given to much wine, teachers of what is good,
Tit 2:4  in order for them to train the young women to love their husbands, to love their children,
Tit 2:5  to be sensible, blameless, workers at home, good, subject to their own husbands, in order that the word of Elohim is not evil spoken of. 

Those words are not easy to hear, sometimes because they strike cords in my heart that I need to do more in guarding my tongue and my thoughts. So that what I say and do would shine forth unto the One most high, that people would see in me the "the Joy of Yahweh being my strength!" HalleluYAH! He is, oh my friends, HE IS!! I can't speak enough of His mercies and kindness to this wayward girl, who can get just as stubborn and rebellious as the sky turns blue in the morning! I am forever thankful and in love with the Maker of the Universe. He has done great and marvelous wonders in Gabriel and I's life, even in my babies too! His hand has been upon us and it has been steadfast.

 I encourage you all to search out your relationship to the one who created you, I bet you will find strength to overcome alot more then you think! HalleluYAH! I'm living proof... I'm not saying it is going to be easy, but it is a start to who I know Yahweh has created you to be. Yahweh Be with you this day and may the light of Yahushua shine forth in you BRIGHTLY!


... Let's RUN!


Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

  


 

FWD:

Almond Milk: Take 1 cup almonds and pour 2cups boiling hot water over them. let them soak for a few minutes till skins can easily come off. put skinless almonds in a blender w/1quart water. add 1tbsp oil. and 2 tablespoon sweetener (I use veg. glyerin for my candida diet) but I bet anything would work. blend up till nicely blended. then strain off the almond patee'. Volia! Almond Milk!

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Lentil Hummus! when your out of garbanzo beans (chick peas) try Lentils... may not look tasty but "oh, it is!"

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Day 43/Day10......... Idea's & Misc material.

Jer 29:11  ‘For I know the plans I am planning for you,’ declares יהוה, ‘plans of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and an expectancy.

  Those words hit me today when I read them. It was a great reminder that when we give over the obstacles we face to our Heavenly Father and follow His ways, He will raise us up and help us to overcome the things that cause us to stumble and the things that we allow in our lives due to lack of time with Him. To know that He has plans that bypass our mere thought to a future, is incredible!! He is bigger, better, and most diligent to teach us and show us our weak area's and help us to overcome ourselves. It is hard, very hard. Hard to tell my flesh, NO! I have literally had to bridle my very body from it's wayward ways. I remember one time I wanted my morning coffee (actually it was Teeccino herbal non caff a no coffee, coffee! lol.) with Honey and Goats milk, But I had just started my candida plan.... my thoughts to myself were " oh, it's fine! it won't hurt if I have little bit". So, after telling myself that I got up went to the kitchen opened the cabinet and I heard this silent "No, you are okay... you don't need it." I stopped looked into the cabinet thinking it was going to encourage me to bypass the silent voice (The Ruach/Set-apart Spirit). Instead I closed the doors and walked away. He was there, in my moment of pure weakness He came to my rescue! I am so thankful and grateful to a loving Maker who saw to my need and gave me strength. HalleluYAH!

  For those that would like to know what or how I am making our meals, Well so far we have been whipping up some crazy recipes, we are kind of winging it. But I do have this book Gabe had gotten me a ways back about Candida control. I love it just cause it gives some pretty tasty recipes but it also helps with what foods are problems and what foods I should be eating. I encourage you to check it out.... 


Here is a link to a book review of the cookbook!:

http://yeastfreeliving.com/2010/02/03/the-candida-control-cookbook-book-review/ 


  I haven't yet tried the recipes but I'm finding it handy to seeing what I should and shouldn't eat! I remember getting this book and wanting to throw it across the room because I didn't want to change my lifestyle and eat (at the time) nothing tasty! haha I was wrong...I have enjoyed every dish we have whipped up. Mainly just veggies and meat, but oh how good it has been.

  Also check out some websites about the Candida plan or diet, even found good recipes too... 

Here are a few:
http://www.everydiet.org/diet/candida-diet
http://www.thecandidadiet.com/foodstoavoid.htm
http://www.thecandidadiet.com/foodstoeat.htm      please read disclaimer
http://www.thecandidadiet.com/recipes.htm                        below!

*Disclaimer* I found www.thecandidadiet.com very informative but I do not like the immodesty that is shown in some of the pictures so I ask you to please keep children away from the computer screen when checking out that site, we have a filter for pictures so I do not see them so I ask you to use great care to protect those that might be tempted by the photos, even for yourself.     

  So that's a start! I hope you find it informative to help you along your path!! 


I'm gonna have to end it here.... Yahweh Bless you this day and the rest of the week!


Let's Run!

Sady

Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.

FWD:

My Husband fixed me a delicious Salmon pattie w/ sweet potato's & onion and steamed broccoli. It was so good!

mmhhhmm... the smell of this dish is just amazing! It is a Corn & rice pasta w/homemade pesto. topped with beef bacon & beef sirloin mixed with tomatos, onions, garlic & yellow peppers.

My White Bean, Venison & Sweet Potato chili.

Day 41/Day 8. Head Held High.

Isa 40:28  Did you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting Elohim, יהוה, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.
Isa 40:29  He gives power to the faint, and to those who have no might He increases strength.
Isa 40:30  Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men stumble and fall,
Isa 40:31  but those who wait on יהוה renew their strength, they raise up the wing like eagles, they run and are not weary, they walk and do not faint. 

  Those scriptures truly speak volumes into my life, Especially right now! Those statements are true, because I can feel them in my daily walk and as I run this race. I am so grateful for this time and for this strength I have received so far. I see myself better, I see myself changing, I see myself desiring the better end of Health, not the quick fix. That I truly want to take time to overcome the wrong I have done to myself. I think for the longest time I always wanted the quick fix, you know like the "24-hour celebrity diet drink" that went around for a while and my still be out there. I never did that, but don't think I didn't ever want to try it. I did. Sad, yeah! Think about all the time I spent thinking on how to make it easier for myself when in all that "thinking" I wasted 12 years! 12 YEARS! In those 12 years I gained even more weight and I picked up some ugly habits. 
   So back to my main point... I feel like I am seeing myself in a whole new light that I am a different person. I'm stronger and more readily willing to think things out. I'm making choices for myself that will benefit me in the long run, instead of the instant feel good notion. YAY! I'm not saying that we won't splurge once in a while but maybe in that time of splurging we will consider making it wholesome and beneficial to our health. I'm enjoying this time and enjoying the feeling of being more conscientious ! Thank You YAHWEH! HalleluYAH!

I pray you all are well and striving for the better in yourself through Messiah Yahushua!

Let's Run!




Sady


Heb 12:1  We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us,
Heb 12:2  looking to the Princely Leader and Perfecter of our belief, יהושע, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the stake, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.